I find it so strange that Israel’s Sunday is the rest of the world’s Monday.
Sunday- is the start of the work week.
The girls came home from preschool on Friday and I decided to surprise them with make- up time.
About 2 months ago I awoke on a Saturday morning to find my girls COVERED in make up. My make up. Make up that cost A LOT OF $. The kind I can’t find in Israel…. I cried.
They quickly realized that they did something wayyyy wrong.
And mommy learned her lesson: lock up everything of importance.
anyway I bought them a little make up kit for kids.
You know- so that they don’t EVER touch my make up again.
And then I did this to them:
That afternoon, I took the girls to a birthday party.
A kid in their class turned 4.
They were so excited about the party that they talked about it all week.
My husband refused to come with us- so off I went with my girls.
The parents rented out the community center and they had a man come with different animals- reptiles, and bunnies.
My girls were a bit scared of the snakes- and rightfully so.
They danced and ate and screamed.
It was so nice.
I don’t really mingle with other parents.
I find that strange because I am such an extrovert.
I feel like the odd man out.
Other parents don’t really know me because I work and my husband is the primary parent at school.
He’s the face of our family there.
So I’m sort of this mythical creature to all the other mothers.
I am the full-time working mother who should be more involved.
I’m the mother who forgets to pay the parents committee.
They can suck it.
Then after the party, I took them to the nearby park and let them run wild.
They loved it.
We came home around 7:30pm and we all sat down to a nice warm dinner- yes, I cook on Fridays!
And as the girls went to sleep I realized something.
Despite the dark days that I had at first.. despite the fact that it took me 3 years to come out from under my PPD.. I am here now.
I am the mother that I always wanted to be.
Maybe not 100% perfect.
But I am HERE.
my mind doesn’t run off when I am with them.
I sit and enjoy them.
I take them in.
because they are only going to be this age once.
And I’ll be damned if I miss it.