Neve threw a temper tantrum in a store- in front of everyone- and the whole place looked at me like “Cant that lady control her child”?.
I guess, there is a first time for everything I suppose.
Yesterday, I had the day off from work.My grandfather arrived from Israel on Tuesday night, and I wanted my mother to be able to spend the day with him without watching the kids.
My husband was in school, so I was on sole baby duty.
I decided to go to the mall with my friend and her two kids (ages 2.5 & 1.5). This was the first time that I have driven both my girls anywhere. I know to some- driving their kids around is not a big deal. For me, it’s huge.
You see, when I was 19 I decided to get my license. During this time, I was out with a few friends, and while sitting in the front passenger seat- we went head on into an 18 wheeler truck on the high way. We all thought we were going to die. I know I did. You truly do see your life flash before your eyes. You realize what’s truly important.
We all made it out -alive. without a scratch. The police called it a “pink case” which means that by the severity of the crash- there should have been a fatality.
So lets just say, it took me years to get my license. I only got it at the age of 24. Needless to say I still do not drive on highways. I have had a fear of driving with the kids in general.
So when I loaded them into the car by myself, and drove them to the mall- that was a first for me!!
My friend Franny and I were walking through the mall with our double strollers- it was so strange!
I remember trying to get pregnant when her son was born, and when she became pregnant with her daughter 3 months later- it did hurt. It hurt because it seemed to come so easy for her, while I was struggling for answers. The wacky thing about it all? I found out I was pregnant the day she gave birth to her daughter ( 5/11/2007)- and our daughters are only 6 months a part!! Even writing it down seems strange, I mean I found out I was pregnant in May of 2007, and my girls were born in Nov of 07!?
Moving on, we went to the Gap- and let me tell you- Neve went nuts. She would NOT stop crying no matter what I did! Everyone looked at me like I was crazy. I officially understood mothers who were out with their kids. Ha.
I did a little retail therapy- which I have been doing A LOT lately (much to my husband’s chagrin). I have lost 20 pounds since giving birth, although I am still 20 pounds away form my pre-pregnancy weight. Since starting Jenny Craig 10 weeks ago, I have lost 10 pounds (not wonderful but I’ll take it) and 3 inches off my chest, 3 off my hips, and 3 off of my tummy. Sufficed to say, I have NO clothes that fit. The clothes that I wore before I became pregnant don’t fit, and neither do my maternity clothes (which are too big and not form fitting). So I have been buying a lot of clothes- and having new clothes has definitely made me feel much better about myself. My confidence is getting a bit better I would say. People are definitely starting to notice, which feels really nice. I guess I’m starting to look a bit like myself again, which makes me feel like myself again.
So my grandfather arrived on Tuesday, and it’s been really nice having him here. He is staying by my parent’s house. This trip is hard for him, because it’s his first since my grandmother passed away last year. This morning he came to my house with my mother, and as he sat on my couch he saw this picture of my grandmother (taken on my wedding day: 1 year before she died):
He saw it, and started wiping away tears.
I am happy he is getting to spend some time with his great-granddaughters: