I had mini nervous breakdowns the past few days. I don’t know what it was, it was just horrible. I feel like I’m in prison with no privacy.
Doctor #2 from my practice came in today to talk to me today.
He pretty much gave me the facts:
1. They will not discharge me, if I choose to I have to sign myself out against medical advice. It pretty much means that they wont discharge me because if something goes wrong, I can sue them.
2. He said that he doesn’t think anything will happen if I go home, but he cant guarantee that something wont happen either. He said that if my water broke at home, I could deliver right away- a foot might come out. Wow- I did not know that.
That alone scared the sh*t out of me. I wont leave.
But you know what killed me? As he was getting up to leave he said “Go watch Oprah”-to get my mind off of the situation. I could not believe my ears! First of all it was 12pm, and Oprah only comes on at 4pm- but that is not the point. It was like he was brushing me off, plus it was a little sexist in my opinion.
I looked at him and said “Go watch Oprah? What does that have to do with anything? ” He said it didn’t mean anything, just to watch TV and get my mind off of things. He didn’t think I was going to react to that comment. He has no idea who he’s dealing with.
I cant wait when my Doctor returns from vacation on Tuesday. He is great and wouldn’t tell me to “Go watch Oprah”.
My stretch marks are spreading and getting itchier. My husband went out to buy me some cocoa butter, I wonder if it’ll work.
And although I know that this is very hard, I am thankful that I have reached 28 weeks. I just tend to cry when my husband goes home. It’s hard to be here without him. He runs back and forth between work, school and the hospital. He is running on empty but he is such a trooper. He is amazing and I don’t know how he does it. When I ask, he says “Well that’s my job”. How awesome is he?
My friend’s do come by on occasion and try to lighten my mood. My mother did too until our crazy fight yesterday. It ended with her storming out of my hospital room vowing to not return- and you know what, it made me happy! That woman drives me insane and stresses me out. I don’t really get along with her and I don’t think I ever will. Its sad but it is what it is.
So anyway, I will keep on trucking and hope to GD that these girls stay in.