Ive thought a lot about what I asked in my last post and realized that I will go ahead and keep paying the money. I mean, it is only $1000 a year. There is no way I would donate them or destroy them until I have at least attempted another ivf down the road. But I would never donate them. That’s just my choice.
So tonight is the high holy Jewish holiday of Yom Kippur. Basically, this is a day of judgement. This entails fasting from sundown to sundown the next day, not watching tv or surfing the net, or doing anything electrical , cant ride in cars… etc. Pretty much the only thing you can do is lay in bed and read and go to temple.
I have fasted every year since my bat mitzva (12 years old) and I was told by my doctor that I cannot fast this year- since I have two little ones in there. So I will be drinking some water and having a piece of bread here and there. A part of me feels guilty, but I know that I have to eat. I have no choice- this is for my children.
So, I will be laying in bed for 24 hours and reading a lot.
I have been feeling VERY VERY physically exhausted lately. My body hurts, it’s hard to walk. I know that it will get harder than this, but this is pretty hard (not that I’m complaining because in a few months I get to meet my daughters GD willing)! Plus, every time I lay down, I feel Baby B’s feet/ legs logged in my rib cage. It is not fun.
Yesterday I had sharp pains on the lower part of the left side of my belly. I called the doctor and he said that it was OK. He said the only reason I should worry is if:
a) I see blood
b) I have heavy menstrual cramp pains X1000
He added: “Don’t forget, your one month more than you are”- as in I am like a woman who is 27 weeks not 23. So, I will keep truckin’.
Every time I walk by someone at work they always ask “How are you feeling?”- and truthful it’s starting to bug me! That’s always the question! I mean, I know its coming from a good place- and I must have asked the same to the pregnant women I knew prior to my own pg- but hearing it about 100 times a day and answering is getting old.
So not much to report- just all around achy and tired.
Hope you all have a wonderful weekend- whatever you do!